The Update

The summer is drawing to a definite close. In less than a month, no, less than 20 days, no, in 2 weeks exactly, I will be spending my first night back at school. !??!??! Holy cow. I have this week and next week to get ready. I didn’t realize that quite yet and it just hit home. Sheesh.

“But I digress.” This summer has been a new one. The change I will discuss here is that I went from part time unpaid internship to full time job, 9-5 Monday – Friday. And they want me to continue working part time, remotely, from school, during the school year. It’s a good deal. But, I had already gotten a job on campus! Well, I am asking for less hours there, and hopefully He will it all out without any hassle.

Spiritually, this summer wasn’t the best. The only thing possibly positive was a decision that I thought was the right thing to do. But no growth has really come from that, and I ended up feeling alone and slightly depressed half the time. I don’t believe I’ve had a good one on one conversation for some time, even online, and it is making me feel different than I ever have, I think. Or maybe I am feeling similar to how I have felt in the past, but I can almost explain it now. Maybe a nice heartfelt post can deal with that, but I won’t today, because it is getting late.

Last night was good for me. I took something that I’ve been feeling and thinking about lately and I gave it to God (you may be able to guess the nature of these feelings by reading some of my recent writings). I couldn’t tell you how to do that, because honestly, I don’t know how. I said, “Whatever it means for me to give this to You, make it happen.” I ended up listening to some songs that night that were powerful. First, I listened to what is definitely now one of my favorite songs, Hello, Good Friend by The Rocket Summer. Another song was Already by Rush of Fools. That song – beautiful.

I feel good now. For once, I feel like I can honestly use a particular closing statement that I usually don’t feel I really understand.

God bless,

Zach